Living in a country that is so fiercely patriotic about
every aspect of their way of life, it does do much to remind outsiders of how
far we still have to fit in. When I’m watching dazzlingly firework displays in
New York City for July 4th celebrations, I’m not reminded of the day
Americans finally declared themselves an independent country a couple centuries
ago, rather I’m reminded of vibrant times in my own history of gaining
independence and overcoming obstacles to stand as the country we are today. When
I taste the first earth shattering bites of apple pie, I long back to the times
when melktert was readily available because the kerk Tannies had decided to
hold a bake sale at the local Spar for no other reason then to remind the
people of this world that there is heaven on earth. And add pannekoek to that
mix and I’d be a regular in church on a Sunday thanking God for this wonderful
miracle.
Yet I’ve always found myself wondering if I were to go home
one day would I jump right back into the swing of things, or would I sit back
pondering of a time that use to be? Will I lock my door at night in fear and
remember all the millions of times in another land I’d walked out the house
leaving it completely open to friends and thieves alike and coming back a few
days later to a fully furnished house and neighbours kind enough to water the
plants? When watching our land’s heroes on the rugby field bringing us
victories by the boatload, will I be reminded of the times people have tried
but failed to teach me of the intricacies that are American football only to
give up, hand me a beer and let me live my life in oblivion regarding this
matter? When sitting amongst the people of my home, hesitant to speak for fear
of how my words will be interpreted, will I long back to the days I sat in a
classroom studying African American literature with a group of people so
culturally diverse they heralded from almost every nook and cranny of this
earth and debate with them about issues of racism and equality and know that it
is my voice that matters and not my skin colour?
When we choose the life of the homeless we choose to give up
roots that ground us and decide instead to find comforts and commonalities
amidst the unknown. Being a South African in America is what sets me apart from
the crowd. My difference is not only glaringly obvious the moment I open my
mouth and speak with an accent that sounds (according to almost every American)
light-years away from many people here, but for me it’s most obvious when we
sit around the table at dinner time and I’m the only one who uses a knife
whilst everyone makes do with just a fork. It’s obvious when I’m eating huge
turkeys and roasts during Christmas time when what I’m use to is lighting up
the braai on Christmas day and spending the time doing what we South Africans
do best; cooking meat to perfection on an open fire. Yet despite the open
differences there are many things that unite us, and in a country as diverse as
America these similarities are not hard to come by. I may not find South
Africans on every street, but I do find people who have travelled from
countries I’m just coming to learn of, who have left families and friends
behind to start life alone in the wilderness. The girl from Georgia (the
country) who sat with me in a sauna describing life in her wonderful country
and what things she hoped to achieve in her lifetime, didn’t make us strangers
because of a language and cultural barrier but kindred spirits in this foreign
land. Meeting a girl in a parking lot who happened to share the same language
and continent but not the same country fastened us rather as sisters and not
just casual acquaintances. Being away from all you know gives you the wonderful
ability to wax nostalgic of days gone by and at the very same time to appreciate
the beauty of where you’ve ended up. You become one of the elite on this planet
that is truly able to experience both sides of the coin, to know what it means
to live and work to create your own dreams in the land of opportunities that is
America, and to understand a country in distress at the same time. Your life
becomes a shining example for what people are capable of achieving and not just
showcasing some Hollywood movie of insurmountable impossibilities because to
someone out there you’re living, breathing proof and not a mythological
creature.
I’ve lived in this country for just over 3 years now and
instead of embracing the place I’m in, I’ve longed for all I’ve left behind.
Yet it took meeting fellow South Africans at a braai in a foreign land to make
me realize how lucky I am, and to snap me out of living in an era of
wistfulness. By longing for what was I forget to appreciate what is. I got so
caught up in existing just for that moment when I could finally put my feet
back on to African soil that I ceased to embrace the joy of living in the land
fortune had granted me the wondrous chance of beholding. When meeting those
South Africans I came to see that home isn’t just the physical aspects that
make up the rainbow nation of South Africa. Home is the people that share the
same traditions as me, it’s talking in a voice that has people asking instead,
“Do you come from the same part of the world as me?” and not, “Is that British
(you could replace that with Australian if you so chose as well)?” Home is
knowing that there’s always a place to go back to but in the end having the
freedom to embark on exploring new frontiers and creating grand adventures in
foreign places. And at the end of the day when all is said and done, home will
be a place of magnificent people and glorious moments unconfined by the
boundaries of land.